Other things

Just some updates that I've finally got around to posting, sifting through about two-hundred photos on my iphone and arranging them onto Blogger is probably the only productive thing I've done all day. I've tried my best to arrange them in order from when I left off, but my memory's pretty muddled so it may not be chronological. But here's the summary of events that have happened to me complete with pictures:

1. Exam Week:

My friends' reactions to exams, stress, deadlines, IB and well life:

Lloyd says: Go away, you small child.

 The people I've been studying with:

Natalie after too much math at my place ^

The Gents, Kai Sing and Ching Yi^

History kids dying in the library and us going for lunch with our econs plus one:

2. Post Exams: 

Baking with Chaice and Zandra, in addition to saving Zandra from being lost:

HIGHLIGHTS Exhibition with works from my group's IA photoshoot last year :)

Day out with Natalie, she has converted me into a Boost addict now:

Plus us lying around somewhere in school much later on in the week

Tones ticket sales with the Tones team:

I sent my brother off at Tekong and cried for a good 10 minutes, overly-attached sister award goes to me everyone

TONES!!

"You Tape Duck" by Samuel Choon and the helpers shagged out in the crew corner

 Probably one of my best nights ever, Tones was amazing with great music, lovely company and good vibes. Props to Chaice and Clare for organizing and everyone else on the team who made this happen ^^ best Tones I've ever been to~

I've also gotten my hands on this new app Snap Chat. You take a photo and send it to your buddies and they can only view it for a limited amount of time before the photo is gone. Needless to say, I've been having too much fun screen-shotting -is this even a word??- everything.

Snap Chat Y'all:

 

 Excursion to Joo Chiat has got to be the best Chinese class ever, ate so much food and got to see a whole different side of Singapore :)

    

 Its probably safe to assume Scholars have a thing for paper, hence above ^

 More Snap Chats:

 

 

Gwen always sends the funniest Snap Chats :) <3

Watched the Open House preview for dance and as always, Dance never fails to impress :D -I also got Natalie a cactus, because they last longer and flowers are too mainstream-

Scholar Kong with her childhood nicely packaged in a box:

Cebu shirt printing, we're leaving in 5(?!?) days!

We also made thaumatropes -still don't know how to spell this word- but I can't find the pictures :(

Also, infinitely grateful for the below two:

Been doing quite a bit of reflecting, won't post those thoughts because they're a bit too private and might offend some. But I think its currently for the best, where I am right now is probably going to be better for me long term and I should be happy with that. I've been having a lot of fun recently but I'm also very worried about the future and what it's going to hold for me. Year 5 IB hasn't been good so far and its about time I turn that around. We'll just have to wait and see.

Flying off to Cebu in 5 days and I have to leave the house in 5 minutes. Probably going to post again tonight, we'll see about that too. 

xTsui

A Lack of Sugar

Had a lack of sugar these few weeks. Every year for the Lenten Season I try to either do something more 'religious' or 'faith-like' this is the first year I've actually tried to give something up. And knowing me and my motto: 

Pictures credit to Tumblr and Pinterest

I would try my best to at least do something hard/worthwhile. It didn't make sense to me not to. 

So I gave up something I really liked: Sweets. Not just deserts and chocolate, but sweet drinks down to even jams and honey on toast (I admit I cheated a little and added honey to my water, but that was because I was sick ok!) 

Sweet foods have always been a form of comfort for me. It's my go-to taste whenever I'm down in the dumps or tired out from a day at school. There's that strange euphoria that accompanies taking sweets. Whether it's teh bing or a bar of chocolate, the comforting coil of joy with a sudden rush of energy is the thing I've relied sweets to bring me. And for a long time it did. 

Denying myself sweets and the temporal moment of bliss when the piece of candy hits my teeth was a pretty, well, agonizing experience. I found myself more tired and probably a lot more irritable. Without something to perk me up, I was constantly a little less enthusiastic. 

There was also the feeling of being painfully aware since I've cut sugar out. Without the sweets to help distract with the bad moods, I discovered clear-headedness and self-awareness that although wasn't what I really liked, if I look back on it now, exactly what I needed. 

I think I'm a person that feels too much and I tend to let my feelings come in the way of a lot of things. But instead of dealing my feelings prior to this, I had a tendency of distracting myself school-work, writing, reading and eating. I spent a lot more time piling on the work and the food, trying to fill myself up and just divert my attention away from the mess that was my emotions  I spent more time figuring out ways to distract myself from my problems when I could have been dealing with them. 

Taking the conscious decision to not eat certain foods because they were sweet also helped me to make a conscious track of my own decisions and to be very aware. Not just of the people and situations and people around me but of myself. 

Very funny and strange how a small thing like cutting out sugar could lead up to so much. 

Lent is going to be over soon and Holy Week has just begun. And I am praying for a better term and a stronger resolution to do well and not to lose sight of my dreams and goals. I also pray for the people around me to be safe, happy and well in what they do and for them to achieve their dreams too. 

Current feel: Strange Zen mode that is very foreign to me but at the same time I feel a deeper stirring of emotion somewhere. Its like a still top on a body of water with churning undercurrents (water metaphors ftw!) 

Hope everyone has a lovely Holy Week ahead! 

Tsui

Seventeen Seventeen

Hello everyone~

Its been like forever since I blogged.

My last entry was like ages ago... Haven't had much time to post anything on this space. I've got many entries in my drafts that have been collecting dust for quite a while now... The IB has been taking up too much of my time and effort. Hardly have anytime to read or do anything that I like anymore...

But anyway, I'm officially 17 now :) It's been a week since my birthday and I don't feel any different like intellectually, emotionally or spirituality... Been waiting for a change and so far it hasn't happened yet. It's only been a week of seventeen-dom though haha. I probably need to learn to be patient, because good things will happen soon.

Celebrated my Birthday on the 17th (am I the only person that finds this funny?), just a small gathering of good school friends, some I've known for my whole schooling life in SOTA, others I've gotten the privilege of being good friends with only recently :) nonetheless, they're all still lovely, wonderful people and the most glorious company to be around :)

The Lovely Nat Lam <3 

One of the few people I know that can look gorgeous without even trying OTL

the lovely deskbuds from B2 2012! <3 Ching Yi and Amelia! 

The food -drools-

John Lennon and Andrew Lloyd Webber

The Alcoholics Association Picture, AA

The friends surprised me with Cake <3 :')

the most glamourous photo ever please

I really really like this picture hahaha

The lovely girls <3

Diego!

The Bestie for 3 years ft Nat's face 

The Arnis has been doing you good my friend ;) HAHA

Thank you guys so much for taking time out of your Sundays to celebrate the day of my birth, although it wasn't the actual day of my birth (hahaha). You guys are such lovely and wonderful company and I'm really thankful for having each and every one of you guys in my life <3 and to Gwen and Nick who couldn't make it, there'll be other lunches and celebrations that we can have together :) so don't feel like you guys missed out on anything :) <3

On another note Gwen made me a video for my birthday :) <3 love you Gwen <3 and yes my voice is truly that high... 

Will post more updates soon :) 

xxTsui