Bound 2

Haven't posted in so long :( school's been getting very busy and I haven't had that much time to sit down and get a proper non-cas-related-reflection-entry out in a while -yes i have a cas blog, please don't judge me HAHA-

School work has been piling up lately, it's honestly deadline after deadline and assignment after assignment. I really think I need to manage my time properly, I'm getting better, but I'm still a bit too messy and un-organised, ugh. Hopefully I kick my nasty habits of procrastinating and day-dreaming, it's honestly not doing me any good. But I would say I'm a lot more motivated now, and that's been paying off so far :)

I've just been reflecting on appearances and the whole idea of beauty/prettiness that people, well mainly girls, tend to seek. I'm not going to deny the fact that I, too, am quite vain and bother way too much about how I look and how others perceive me. I try not to let that effect me too much, but I don't deny that it does upset me quite a bit when I don't feel like I look good or if I'm not considered pretty. It's quite shallow and annoying to be honest and I have to remind myself that as much as I want to bother about my looks, these things don't matter as much in the long term :) and it's about, cheesily, my insides hahaha

However, I do think that, sometimes, people are very affected and often do get very sensitive about their looks. I mean its natural to get affected by what you see around, and get envious of what we don't have and what we want that others have. We tend to fall into the insecurity of being unwanted because we don't look a certain way or dress in a certain way, but I think that is a whole load of bull. You don't need anyone else's approval for your looks at all. If you're happy and confident in yourself then that's ultimately what matters most :)

On a completely separate note, I just watched Becoming 2013! :) and I'm very proud of Natalie for her performance, love you Nat! Take care ok? :)

I might blog again soon, geez, I'm getting rusty with this personal reflection writing.

Ciao for now~

xxTsui

Musings 1

The extended Youth Day weekend is coming to and end :( I've had such a lovely weekend that it almost seems strange and surreal. I managed to get a lot of work done, while enjoying myself over the weekend which was a big shocker to me. I get very unmotivated and lazy quite often when I get complacent -very bad habit that I need to kick- but I managed to cut down a lot on my procrastination and at least get work done :) for which I am very grateful and strangely perplexed. Because I've not been like this before and its strange.

Some part of me wonders where this is really coming from, I may not have a definite and exact answer, but I know that I am slowly changing and discovering myself again. I'm not going back to the way I was before but I think I'm moving on from that. I'm becoming more of 'myself' in a sense? Like I'm realising the potential within myself and I'm working towards that 'self'.

If you ask me what is at the end of that tunnel or that 'self' that I want to realise. I wouldn't be able to answer you quite frankly. Because I don't have a definite of what I am in a worldly sense. I do know that I am Child of God, with a vocation to Love and this is my dream of which I will act on in enthusiasm and faith

And for that I look towards that my future and for the things that may come my way. I pray that I would have the courage to change what I can, the serenity to accept those that I cannot and the wisdom to know the difference. 

May everyone have a blessed week! :)

xxTsui